DAY 19 | ADVENT JUBILEE
REFLECT: PROVERBS 30
Two things I asked of You, Do not refuse me before I die: Keep deception and lies far from me, Give me neither poverty nor riches; Feed me with the food that is my portion, That I not be full and deny You and say, “Who is the Lord?” Or that I not be in want and steal, And profane the name of my God. vs. 7-9
It is difficult to imagine a path through contemporary American culture that would involve keeping "deception and lies far from me", and maybe even more difficult to imagine a way of life in our misshapen socioeconomic order wherein one could have "neither poverty nor riches", consuming only "the food that is my portion". And yet, here are these verses, here is our church, here are all of our hearts and minds, trying to know Christ together, though many would argue that we really should know better by now. Can God, and what God alone provides, be sufficient for us?
In my Evangelical youth group one of the most popular worship songs was "Enough": "you satisfy me with your love/and all I have in you/is more than enough". We sang this sentiment at camp with gusto, though of course it was not true for almost any of us almost any of the time. We were riddled by desires and angst and materialism and uncertainty...and yet I don't think we were lying when we expressed that enough-ness. Or at least, I don't think declaring something to be true when you really WANT it to be true, though it it isn't quite true yet, is the same as lying.
I hope God and God's providence can be enough. They aren't enough most of the time, and I clutch at many, many other things to fill my spiritual and material needs. But I hope that they will be, soon.